Long pauses

Well, it's been another long time since my last entry. That's mainly because I've been sick for the past almost three weeks now. It's a really frustrating thing to be sick for so long. I went to the doctor for the second time yesterday, and they determined that whatever I had before was sort of a precursor to what I have now. Basically, it's developed into bronchitis. How thrilling! I'm not all that surprised though. It definitely felt like bronchitis.

So, lately, I've been in kind of a funk, but being sickly for 18 days (I think that's how long it has been) will tend to do that to a person. Trust me, it's not fun. I've pretty much been, for all intents and purposes, been pissed off at the world in general since I've been sick. I must say I try to hide it as well as I can when I'm around people. But lately it's been hard. I just get upset over very little things. For example, late last week I had to play a round for the racquetball tournament going on in the meteorology department. For being so sick, I was playing extremely well. Either that, or the guy I was playing wasn't that great to begin with. Anyway, I decided, since I wasn't feeling that great, that we would only play best two out of three. Unfortunately, it only lasted two games; I lost both by a score of 15-12. For some reason I was incredibly upset by that. I was on the verge of a breakdown immediately after the game and until I got home. I think it was partly because my emotions were out of whack anyway after being sick for two weeks, and partly because the games were so close and I really (REALLY) wanted to win them. If I were just feeling a tiny bit better, I probably could have won, but I didn't have the energy to keep going. But, what can I do? I did the best that I could, and that in itself was amazing considering how crappy I was feeling.

I'm still not feeling all that great today. I'm just a little impatient because I've been sick for so long. I guess I feel that the Zithromax I got should start working right away. I know, that's not how it works, but still, I want to feel like a healthy, semi-normal human being. (Being normal is simply out of the question.)

Another thing that's upset me is that I couldn't go on a trip I was supposed to go on this week. Yesterday and today I was supposed to be at NASA-Goddard (I think that's what it's called anyway) for a team meeting for the project I'm working on. I spent a good chunk of Sunday preparing stuff so my advisor could present something to show I have been working on the stuff, but I would have liked to have been able to go and present it myself. However, it's probably best that I didn't go. My body needed a couple days of not doing anything too strenuous, and that's what yesterday and today have been spent doing.

There was a little bright spot that occurred yesterday. One of my roommates actually took a couple minutes to come chat with me and see how I was doing. It made me feel special, especially considering that the other roommate doesn't even bother pretending to notice me unless I'm downstairs at the same time that he is. Most of the time I feel pretty much ignored by both my roommates unless I'm right in front of their faces, but at least Terry sometimes tries to make an effort to talk to me and see how I'm doing and have a little conversation. So, I was a little happy yesterday. It always feels good to have someone validate your existence.

Anyway, I've gone on rambling for long enough. I should probably eat some lunch soon, and take a pill to get rid of my illness finally. Hopefully it won't be as long between entries as it has been recently.